The want/need to have a better relationship with my Mom & Stepdad. I am very different from my entire family. I need (& want) to let go of the ‘fairytale’ that they will want to know me as a person.
All I can figure is that I am suppose to learn how to have a better relationship with myself and see what opens up for me…..what’s unfolding.
I let go of the idea of additional sleep and got up at the crack of dawn. I got myself a glass of water and when I looked out my kitchen window to see what kind of morning we would have I caught the brilliance of the eastern star Venus in a beautiful pink sunrise. Blessed
I can let of go of my past self- the person who thought that they were invincible. I need to let go of the bad attitude I’ve been carrying around on my back. I need to let go of my anxiety- that people will love me as I am.
I need to let go of my people-pleasing, or the idea that I am somehow responsible for others’ happiness. I find myself saying yes instead of no because I like to help others or don’t want to disappoint. But I overcommit or bend until I break due to my refusal to say No and establish clear boundaries.
“Ignorance is not knowing anything and being attracted to the good, Innocence is knowing everything and still being attracted to the good.” from Clarissa Pinkola Estes.
I can let go of the comradery of the classroom and be open to meeting students on an individual level. It is a different kind of connection – no less important – just different
I needed this question today. It speaks to me about the importance of being self-aware. It’s a reminder that some of the self talk I engage is not healthy. Anthony de Mello tells a story in his book, “One Minute Wisdom.” A disciple ask the Master to define “spirituality.” The Master’s answer is “Awareness, Awareness, Awareness.”
I share a Morning Med from 2017 below.
Morning Med Sep 12 2017 Self Awareness Beauty is the harvest of presence. David Whyte
Good Morning, Many things occupy my mind this morning and I feel as if they need to swirl and hopefully unfurl into something I can actually hold and if necessary choose to let go. I say that because as my 12 step sponsor used to say, “When we know better, we do better.” This morning I’m struggling with facts, with information, but no sense of confirmation. It’s like making jello. Hot water, Cold water, stir and refrigerate. You have to give it time to gel, to come together. The word ‘come’ means ‘to be with,’ and so I come with self-compassion to this moment, and this moment, and ultimately I know I will see because I am willing. That’s always been my job. I don’t have to fix myself, I just have to see because I know that Christ Consciousness, the YES of the Universe, Enlightenment, Great Spirit (choose your handle) can and will rise in each and every one of us if we are willing. Sometimes at night, I find my self questioning, questioning, questioning so I know I must get up in the morning and make the coffee and live my questions! But this I know [that] I know:. Current answers change when awareness grows. Even facts may change to fiction over time. Absolute truth is often in question. But as David Whyte says “Beauty is the harvest of presence.” Be still (Desist) and know that without knowledge and acceptance of self, life becomes a relentless treadmill.
“What can we gain by sailing to the moon if we are not able to cross the abyss that separates us from ourselves? This is the most important of all voyages of discovery.” Thomas Merton
Letting go of the idea that my life should’ve been different by the time I got to this age. I should’ve achieved certain things and had certain things. Instead, be open and having faith I’m exactly where I need to be.
Letting go of my need to be in control, is a constant theme. It’s such a balancing act.
And of course fear, judgment, and projecting my beliefs onto others.
Happy anniversary Kevin! 50 years is truly an accomplishment.
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The want/need to have a better relationship with my Mom & Stepdad. I am very different from my entire family. I need (& want) to let go of the ‘fairytale’ that they will want to know me as a person.
All I can figure is that I am suppose to learn how to have a better relationship with myself and see what opens up for me…..what’s unfolding.
I let go of the idea of additional sleep and got up at the crack of dawn. I got myself a glass of water and when I looked out my kitchen window to see what kind of morning we would have I caught the brilliance of the eastern star Venus in a beautiful pink sunrise. Blessed
I can continue to let go of the ”should do” and listen with my open heart.
Let go of past mistakes.
I could let go of outcomes more. I could stop looking at the map more and take a look at the scenery.
I can let of go of my past self- the person who thought that they were invincible. I need to let go of the bad attitude I’ve been carrying around on my back. I need to let go of my anxiety- that people will love me as I am.
I need to let go of my people-pleasing, or the idea that I am somehow responsible for others’ happiness. I find myself saying yes instead of no because I like to help others or don’t want to disappoint. But I overcommit or bend until I break due to my refusal to say No and establish clear boundaries.
All my preconceived notions, follow my heart.
“Ignorance is not knowing anything and being attracted to the good, Innocence is knowing everything and still being attracted to the good.” from Clarissa Pinkola Estes.
My heart is wide open.
The idea of separation. The wave cannot exist without the trough, and indeed, neither without the ocean.
Are there ways I can gather my clutter into nice containers for future sorting?
I can let go of the comradery of the classroom and be open to meeting students on an individual level. It is a different kind of connection – no less important – just different
I needed this question today. It speaks to me about the importance of being self-aware. It’s a reminder that some of the self talk I engage is not healthy. Anthony de Mello tells a story in his book, “One Minute Wisdom.” A disciple ask the Master to define “spirituality.” The Master’s answer is “Awareness, Awareness, Awareness.”
I share a Morning Med from 2017 below.
Morning Med Sep 12 2017 Self Awareness Beauty is the harvest of presence. David Whyte
Good Morning, Many things occupy my mind this morning and I feel as if they need to swirl and hopefully unfurl into something I can actually hold and if necessary choose to let go. I say that because as my 12 step sponsor used to say, “When we know better, we do better.” This morning I’m struggling with facts, with information, but no sense of confirmation. It’s like making jello. Hot water, Cold water, stir and refrigerate. You have to give it time to gel, to come together. The word ‘come’ means ‘to be with,’ and so I come with self-compassion to this moment, and this moment, and ultimately I know I will see because I am willing. That’s always been my job. I don’t have to fix myself, I just have to see because I know that Christ Consciousness, the YES of the Universe, Enlightenment, Great Spirit (choose your handle) can and will rise in each and every one of us if we are willing. Sometimes at night, I find my self questioning, questioning, questioning so I know I must get up in the morning and make the coffee and live my questions! But this I know [that] I know:. Current answers change when awareness grows. Even facts may change to fiction over time. Absolute truth is often in question. But as David Whyte says “Beauty is the harvest of presence.” Be still (Desist) and know that without knowledge and acceptance of self, life becomes a relentless treadmill.
“What can we gain by sailing to the moon if we are not able to cross the abyss that separates us from ourselves? This is the most important of all voyages of discovery.” Thomas Merton
Thank you for this, my thoughts too!
Letting go of the idea that my life should’ve been different by the time I got to this age. I should’ve achieved certain things and had certain things. Instead, be open and having faith I’m exactly where I need to be.
Thank you Nelson, this spoke to me in volumes, if I could have done it any other way, I certainly would have.
Letting go of my need to be in control, is a constant theme. It’s such a balancing act.
And of course fear, judgment, and projecting my beliefs onto others.
Happy anniversary Kevin! 50 years is truly an accomplishment.
I can let go of all the “shoulds”: expectations, assumptions, pre-conceived notions, habits and routines.
Me too. I tell myself not to should on people, including myself.