I Haven’t been able to read a book in a long time. We had 2 full days of rain and I am off of work this week. I saw someone post a book they enjoyed and people chimed in mentioned several others. I took a couple mentioned out of the library and I am really enjoying the first one!
In the spring
I am always surprised to see
that the gardens have come back
after a long winter’s sleep.
Having had problems at the old place . . .
with the sun,
the soil,
the groundhogs eating some of my prized seedlings,
and the things that past inhabitants have dumped in the ground,
I will always be surprised
to see new life in the spring.
Practicing presence of mind
opens the door wide for surprise . . .
when I am mindful
almost everything is a surprise.
We’ve had quite a bit of rain in the last few days,
but today dawned pink and gold and bright.
I went out to the vegetable garden
and was surprised to see how much the vegetables had grown,
but even more so
to view the sunflowers I’d planted down the middle.
No lie . . .
I think they grew four feet overnight.
I am astonished . . .
they have been plugging along,
growing an inch,
putting out a leaf here and there,
but not doing much more,
and now
they are almost as tall as I am,
and will soon pass me by
before they produce large, saucer-sized flowers.
Practicing mindfulness
has also surprised me in other ways . . .
I’ve been slowly,
little by little
every day,
clearing my studio
of things that have been parked there
having not found a home somewhere else.
My first peek into the room today
made me realize
that I am actually making real progress.
My extreme attention to detail
blinded me
to the fact
that I am close to reclaiming the space,
and that was another surprise.
Putting my dishes away
gives me the opportunity
to notice how pretty they are,
and folding my clothes
reminds me that I have plenty in my life.
Slowing down
and paying attention
relieves me of the chaos in the world
and brings me back to simple joys
and opens my soul to each new surprise
the Universe has in store for me
with love. ♥
Picking leaf lettuce, kale, spinach, radishes and some peas that have just come ready one pick two days ago for our salad for supper always brings me ‘back to simple joys’ and opens my essence to the connectedness of it all. Thank you, dear Sparrow.
My spinach died before I could get it into the ground,
which is sad
because it is one of my favorite vegetables,
but we have a plethora of five different kinds of lettuce,
all ready now.
Yes,
dear Joseph . . .
the simple joys. ♥
We just got back from a vacation trip to visit family and friends. My husband always needs to be doing something–fixing, building, working on his computer, researching some new project, riding his bike for an hour on the trainer or a long ride outside getting his heart rate up. I was surprised and delighted when he not only could relax and simply rest and read, but said how much he enjoyed it. I feel as if he let himself set down the sense of “gotta do this thing” that’s always turned up to High on his personal meter.
I can’t think of anything at this moment but I will share a very-long-positive poem by Mat Moberg I read on Facebook a couple of months ago. It’s worth your time.
Mat’s Poem
I think every human being
eventually has a moment
where they are standing outside in sweatpants
that have lost the will to be pants,
holding a trash bag, a divorce, a parking ticket,
or some other receipt from the universe
that says, “surprise, this too is part of it.”
And then the sky bruises purple.
And the air touches your face
like it knows your whole story.
And suddenly you realize:
all the real is actually unreal.
The dirt.
The breath.
The weird little bones in your hands.
The fact that we are here,
on a floating rock with pollen counts,
paying bills,
missing dead people,
loving living people
who say “leaving now”
while still fully naked and looking for socks.
And still,
the moon clocks in.
No applause.
No benefits.
No note from management saying,
“Great work being ancient and luminous again.”
Just the moon,
working nights
like a single mother with no applause,
packing silver lunches
for every dark thing
that still has to rise.
Tell me that isn’t holy.
Tell me there is a better word
than sacred
for the way light keeps returning
with no guarantee
we will actually stop and take note.
I know people who believe in therapy,
probiotics,
tarot,
twelve-step meetings,
manifestation journals,
and waiting exactly eleven minutes
before texting back
so they do not appear emotionally available,
even though their whole nervous system
is standing in the driveway holding flowers.
And underneath all of it,
every ritual,
every doctrine,
every smoothie with chia seeds,
the prayer is the same:
Please let me be loved.
Please let me be forgiven.
Please let this strange little life
mean something
before my lower back
submits its formal resignation.
What is going on?
For real tho—What is this place?
This unbearable tenderness
of being alive long enough
to watch steam lift from coffee in winter
like a soul practicing leaving.
To see your friend laugh so hard
they slap the table
as if joy is a mosquito
they are trying to kill.
To hear a child say “pisghetti”
and, for one shining second,
realize language
has finally been improved.
I know I already noted this in the first piece,
but the older I get,
the less use I have for certainty.
Certainty has never made me pull over
because the sunset looked like God
dropped a jar of peach jam
across the whole midwestern sky
and decided to be lazy
and not clean up.
Certainty has never made me gasp
at rain on hot pavement.
Certainty has never found me
in the cereal aisle,
holding Captain Crunch,
suddenly remembering
that everyone I have ever loved
was made from stardust,
hunger,
and a series of decisions
we probably should have slept on.
No.
It has always been awe.
Awe was the first church.
Before steeples.
Before committees.
Before men got involved
and started making rules about skirts.
Awe was there
with its wild hair
and muddy feet,
saying:
Look.
Look again.
Look until looking
becomes love.
Awe, and soup.
Awe, and someone rubbing your back
when you are sick.
Awe, and old couples at Target
arguing gently about avocados,
as if marriage is not one vow
but ten thousand errands
performed beside the person
who knows exactly
how you like the cart pushed.
Maybe gratitude
was never meant to sound elegant.
Maybe gratitude sounds like:
“Damn.
That woodpecker is trying
to beat that tree from itself.”
Maybe gratitude sounds like:
“Thank you, body,
for continuing to drag me through this world
despite the many slim jims
I have done to you
at gas stations.”
Maybe gratitude sounds like:
“Thank you to the dogs
who lose their entire minds
when we come home
as if we have returned from war
and not Walgreens.”
For me, that might be my gospel.
That joy that does not wait for us
to be impressive but only needs us
to come through the door.
Because the truth is,
this life is devastating.
And ridiculous.
One minute you are 22 and invincible,
driving too fast,
eating gas station nachos
with the confidence of a Greek god.
The next minute you are googling,
“Can sneezing cause a hamstring injury?”
and the answer is,
apparently,
“Welcome to the second half of your life.”
But even now—
even tired,
even grieving,
even emotionally held together
by iced coffee, playlists,
and one very specific wolves hoodie—
we keep finding reasons
to stay soft.
We plant tomatoes
even though grief is real.
We bake bread
even though the news is on fire.
We send photos of the sky
to people we love
with captions like,
“LOOK,”
as if beauty is an emergency
and we are all volunteer firefighters.
We keep saying,
“You have to see this,”
because wonder
is the oldest form
of resurrection.
So here’s to the believers
and the atheists
and the agnostics
and the people whose entire theology
is just trying not to cry
in the DMV line.
Here’s to the people clinging to faith.
Here’s to the people clinging to Xanax
and oat milk
and the one group chat
where nobody pretends to be okay.
Here’s to the tender-hearted weirdos.
The accidental mystics.
The ones who can contemplate mortality
for six straight hours
and then become emotionally attached
to a perfect peach.
The ones who know
despair has a mouth,
but so does laughter.
May we never stop being drop-kicked by beauty
in the middle of a Sunday afternoon.
May we never become so polished
that we forget how to stand
in the Starbucks line of existence
with our dumb, gorgeous hearts open,
feeling the enormity of it all
rattle around in our bones
like thunder
looking for somewhere to laugh.
And may we remember:
whatever else this is,
whatever mess,
whatever miracle,
whatever cosmic group project
no one was prepped for—
all’ve it is astonishing.
that we are here.
that we have loved enough to be ruined.
that the moon keeps showing up.
that bread exists.
So pass it on.
Tear off a piece
with your bare hands.
Take it in as you take it down.
And then go outside and look at that moon.
MM MAT MOBERG on FACEBOOK MAY 28, 2026
“Thank You”
Thank you,
dear Caol Ann,
for this WONDERFUL piece of writing . . .
it is gorgeous,
glorious,
and its message
is delightfully simple.
It’s a keeper,
and I’m saving a copy of it.
The writer
has his fingers firmly wrapped around a Great Truth. ♥
I just saw this on Facebook too, Carol Ann, and loved it. I shared it with my daughters. I record poems for them in our WhatsApp thread, although this one was so long I sent them the link and said they should read it. It’s so, so wonderful.
No real big surprises lately. But I’m pleasantly surprised all the time. Mostly due to practicing gratitude. Noticing all the little things that work out positively all the time. Maybe the work I’m doing is leading to less surprises. Maybe, not being so invested in outcomes and trying to be content with just being present, has lowered the ability of the world to surprise me. After all, I’m surprised that I’m here at all. 😊
A recent ankle sprain turned out to be mild and forgiving. I’ve been able to hike among forests and mountains that are new to me, and stunningly beautiful, with wildflowers, gurgling creeks, and dramatic cliffs.
I often experience change (neutral as it often is) with apprehension, concern or negativity. And then, after some time, even after a little time, that change I didn’t expect a.k.a. surprise, turned out to be fine or even good.
I planted some old wild flower seeds in some big pots in my backyard earlier this summer, not having a clue what would come up, except “wildflowers”, if anything, since the seeds were old. So far only one kind has come up and bloomed. I don’t know what they are, but they are so cheerful and fun. I was really surprised!
I just read through Angela’s post on Facebook this morning called “The Avoidant.” She talked about how there is a certain someone who will come into our lives cracking right through all our constructed defenses and revealing who we really are. That someone for me was Paw Mu. Having outgrown my old ways, I’ve come to realize that I’m as innocent as a dove like Angela, not a backstage politician.
Coming to the realization that I’m as innocent as a dove feels powerful and refreshing. My niece, Harper, is coming over today and tomorrow but not staying the night. I’ve played well with children before. Autistic people are known to have difficulties relating to them. That was me in the past. Backstage politics and children don’t go together in the same sentence.
It’s a peaceful feeling to know that my dislike/difficulties with children stem from the necesity to excel at backstage politics. For starters, I feel safe where I am inside and out. God is closer to the children and those who are innocent.
God never gives us more than what we can handle. Waverly and Harper are well-behaved children. Playing with them is easy. If I wanted some time alone or with Ngoc, I just speak up to them, they’ll listen.
The Lord knows our strengths and weaknesses. He gives me the hard battles with adults, because he sees my strength in backstage politics. My assignment with children are easier, because he knows that’s not my strong suit.
Claire, Angela is a close friend I met at McNally Smith College of Music in St. Paul, MN. I went there from 2013-2017 graduating before the school shut down. She went from 2014-2017 then to Berklee from 2022-2024 graduating from Berklee in 2024.
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I Haven’t been able to read a book in a long time. We had 2 full days of rain and I am off of work this week. I saw someone post a book they enjoyed and people chimed in mentioned several others. I took a couple mentioned out of the library and I am really enjoying the first one!
In the spring
I am always surprised to see
that the gardens have come back
after a long winter’s sleep.
Having had problems at the old place . . .
with the sun,
the soil,
the groundhogs eating some of my prized seedlings,
and the things that past inhabitants have dumped in the ground,
I will always be surprised
to see new life in the spring.
Practicing presence of mind
opens the door wide for surprise . . .
when I am mindful
almost everything is a surprise.
We’ve had quite a bit of rain in the last few days,
but today dawned pink and gold and bright.
I went out to the vegetable garden
and was surprised to see how much the vegetables had grown,
but even more so
to view the sunflowers I’d planted down the middle.
No lie . . .
I think they grew four feet overnight.
I am astonished . . .
they have been plugging along,
growing an inch,
putting out a leaf here and there,
but not doing much more,
and now
they are almost as tall as I am,
and will soon pass me by
before they produce large, saucer-sized flowers.
Practicing mindfulness
has also surprised me in other ways . . .
I’ve been slowly,
little by little
every day,
clearing my studio
of things that have been parked there
having not found a home somewhere else.
My first peek into the room today
made me realize
that I am actually making real progress.
My extreme attention to detail
blinded me
to the fact
that I am close to reclaiming the space,
and that was another surprise.
Putting my dishes away
gives me the opportunity
to notice how pretty they are,
and folding my clothes
reminds me that I have plenty in my life.
Slowing down
and paying attention
relieves me of the chaos in the world
and brings me back to simple joys
and opens my soul to each new surprise
the Universe has in store for me
with love. ♥
Picking leaf lettuce, kale, spinach, radishes and some peas that have just come ready one pick two days ago for our salad for supper always brings me ‘back to simple joys’ and opens my essence to the connectedness of it all. Thank you, dear Sparrow.
My spinach died before I could get it into the ground,
which is sad
because it is one of my favorite vegetables,
but we have a plethora of five different kinds of lettuce,
all ready now.
Yes,
dear Joseph . . .
the simple joys. ♥
When I lived up north, I used to love to see the pussy willows, forsythia and crocus’ peek through and bloom after the long winter sleep!
I miss all of those too.
We have all those here,
dear Cathie,
and they are always the first bright spot of spring. ♥
I can’t think of anything, although I am grateful that nothing has surprised me in a negative way recently!
Recently I received 2 personal invites to events that I hadn’t thought to attend. I was surprised and pleased that someone thought of me💕
We just got back from a vacation trip to visit family and friends. My husband always needs to be doing something–fixing, building, working on his computer, researching some new project, riding his bike for an hour on the trainer or a long ride outside getting his heart rate up. I was surprised and delighted when he not only could relax and simply rest and read, but said how much he enjoyed it. I feel as if he let himself set down the sense of “gotta do this thing” that’s always turned up to High on his personal meter.
That’s definitely a nice surprise,
dear Barb . . .
appreciate it
for as long as this inclination lasts. 🙂
A kind response
I can’t think of anything at this moment but I will share a very-long-positive poem by Mat Moberg I read on Facebook a couple of months ago. It’s worth your time.
Mat’s Poem
I think every human being
eventually has a moment
where they are standing outside in sweatpants
that have lost the will to be pants,
holding a trash bag, a divorce, a parking ticket,
or some other receipt from the universe
that says, “surprise, this too is part of it.”
And then the sky bruises purple.
And the air touches your face
like it knows your whole story.
And suddenly you realize:
all the real is actually unreal.
The dirt.
The breath.
The weird little bones in your hands.
The fact that we are here,
on a floating rock with pollen counts,
paying bills,
missing dead people,
loving living people
who say “leaving now”
while still fully naked and looking for socks.
And still,
the moon clocks in.
No applause.
No benefits.
No note from management saying,
“Great work being ancient and luminous again.”
Just the moon,
working nights
like a single mother with no applause,
packing silver lunches
for every dark thing
that still has to rise.
Tell me that isn’t holy.
Tell me there is a better word
than sacred
for the way light keeps returning
with no guarantee
we will actually stop and take note.
I know people who believe in therapy,
probiotics,
tarot,
twelve-step meetings,
manifestation journals,
and waiting exactly eleven minutes
before texting back
so they do not appear emotionally available,
even though their whole nervous system
is standing in the driveway holding flowers.
And underneath all of it,
every ritual,
every doctrine,
every smoothie with chia seeds,
the prayer is the same:
Please let me be loved.
Please let me be forgiven.
Please let this strange little life
mean something
before my lower back
submits its formal resignation.
What is going on?
For real tho—What is this place?
This unbearable tenderness
of being alive long enough
to watch steam lift from coffee in winter
like a soul practicing leaving.
To see your friend laugh so hard
they slap the table
as if joy is a mosquito
they are trying to kill.
To hear a child say “pisghetti”
and, for one shining second,
realize language
has finally been improved.
I know I already noted this in the first piece,
but the older I get,
the less use I have for certainty.
Certainty has never made me pull over
because the sunset looked like God
dropped a jar of peach jam
across the whole midwestern sky
and decided to be lazy
and not clean up.
Certainty has never made me gasp
at rain on hot pavement.
Certainty has never found me
in the cereal aisle,
holding Captain Crunch,
suddenly remembering
that everyone I have ever loved
was made from stardust,
hunger,
and a series of decisions
we probably should have slept on.
No.
It has always been awe.
Awe was the first church.
Before steeples.
Before committees.
Before men got involved
and started making rules about skirts.
Awe was there
with its wild hair
and muddy feet,
saying:
Look.
Look again.
Look until looking
becomes love.
Awe, and soup.
Awe, and someone rubbing your back
when you are sick.
Awe, and old couples at Target
arguing gently about avocados,
as if marriage is not one vow
but ten thousand errands
performed beside the person
who knows exactly
how you like the cart pushed.
Maybe gratitude
was never meant to sound elegant.
Maybe gratitude sounds like:
“Damn.
That woodpecker is trying
to beat that tree from itself.”
Maybe gratitude sounds like:
“Thank you, body,
for continuing to drag me through this world
despite the many slim jims
I have done to you
at gas stations.”
Maybe gratitude sounds like:
“Thank you to the dogs
who lose their entire minds
when we come home
as if we have returned from war
and not Walgreens.”
For me, that might be my gospel.
That joy that does not wait for us
to be impressive but only needs us
to come through the door.
Because the truth is,
this life is devastating.
And ridiculous.
One minute you are 22 and invincible,
driving too fast,
eating gas station nachos
with the confidence of a Greek god.
The next minute you are googling,
“Can sneezing cause a hamstring injury?”
and the answer is,
apparently,
“Welcome to the second half of your life.”
But even now—
even tired,
even grieving,
even emotionally held together
by iced coffee, playlists,
and one very specific wolves hoodie—
we keep finding reasons
to stay soft.
We plant tomatoes
even though grief is real.
We bake bread
even though the news is on fire.
We send photos of the sky
to people we love
with captions like,
“LOOK,”
as if beauty is an emergency
and we are all volunteer firefighters.
We keep saying,
“You have to see this,”
because wonder
is the oldest form
of resurrection.
So here’s to the believers
and the atheists
and the agnostics
and the people whose entire theology
is just trying not to cry
in the DMV line.
Here’s to the people clinging to faith.
Here’s to the people clinging to Xanax
and oat milk
and the one group chat
where nobody pretends to be okay.
Here’s to the tender-hearted weirdos.
The accidental mystics.
The ones who can contemplate mortality
for six straight hours
and then become emotionally attached
to a perfect peach.
The ones who know
despair has a mouth,
but so does laughter.
May we never stop being drop-kicked by beauty
in the middle of a Sunday afternoon.
May we never become so polished
that we forget how to stand
in the Starbucks line of existence
with our dumb, gorgeous hearts open,
feeling the enormity of it all
rattle around in our bones
like thunder
looking for somewhere to laugh.
And may we remember:
whatever else this is,
whatever mess,
whatever miracle,
whatever cosmic group project
no one was prepped for—
all’ve it is astonishing.
that we are here.
that we have loved enough to be ruined.
that the moon keeps showing up.
that bread exists.
So pass it on.
Tear off a piece
with your bare hands.
Take it in as you take it down.
And then go outside and look at that moon.
MM MAT MOBERG on FACEBOOK MAY 28, 2026
“Thank You”
Thank you Carol – I will share this poem with my kids
So much truth and poignantly written. Thank you for sharing, Carol Ann.
Wow! Very intense and beautiful! Thanks for sharing Carol Ann
Thank you,
dear Caol Ann,
for this WONDERFUL piece of writing . . .
it is gorgeous,
glorious,
and its message
is delightfully simple.
It’s a keeper,
and I’m saving a copy of it.
The writer
has his fingers firmly wrapped around a Great Truth. ♥
I just saw this on Facebook too, Carol Ann, and loved it. I shared it with my daughters. I record poems for them in our WhatsApp thread, although this one was so long I sent them the link and said they should read it. It’s so, so wonderful.
No real big surprises lately. But I’m pleasantly surprised all the time. Mostly due to practicing gratitude. Noticing all the little things that work out positively all the time. Maybe the work I’m doing is leading to less surprises. Maybe, not being so invested in outcomes and trying to be content with just being present, has lowered the ability of the world to surprise me. After all, I’m surprised that I’m here at all. 😊
”I’m surprised that I’m here at all. 😊”
Me too,
dear Charlie . . .
every day. ♥
Thanks, dear Charlie!
A recent ankle sprain turned out to be mild and forgiving. I’ve been able to hike among forests and mountains that are new to me, and stunningly beautiful, with wildflowers, gurgling creeks, and dramatic cliffs.
Finding a hidden ripe cherry tomatoe on the vine.
Oh this is a delicious surprise🍅
Mine aren’t ready yet,
dear Yram . . .
enjoy. 🙂
Or a really juicy and sweet blackberry!
I often experience change (neutral as it often is) with apprehension, concern or negativity. And then, after some time, even after a little time, that change I didn’t expect a.k.a. surprise, turned out to be fine or even good.
I planted some old wild flower seeds in some big pots in my backyard earlier this summer, not having a clue what would come up, except “wildflowers”, if anything, since the seeds were old. So far only one kind has come up and bloomed. I don’t know what they are, but they are so cheerful and fun. I was really surprised!
Sounds Lovely, Katrina.
Nothing comes to mind at this time, and I’m looking for one. Happy Wednesday to everyone!
My Ngoc, I’m sure something eventually comes up. It just happens on its terms.
Getting to know my neighbors better and feeling more of a sense of belonging in my neighborhood.
I just read through Angela’s post on Facebook this morning called “The Avoidant.” She talked about how there is a certain someone who will come into our lives cracking right through all our constructed defenses and revealing who we really are. That someone for me was Paw Mu. Having outgrown my old ways, I’ve come to realize that I’m as innocent as a dove like Angela, not a backstage politician.
Coming to the realization that I’m as innocent as a dove feels powerful and refreshing. My niece, Harper, is coming over today and tomorrow but not staying the night. I’ve played well with children before. Autistic people are known to have difficulties relating to them. That was me in the past. Backstage politics and children don’t go together in the same sentence.
It’s a peaceful feeling to know that my dislike/difficulties with children stem from the necesity to excel at backstage politics. For starters, I feel safe where I am inside and out. God is closer to the children and those who are innocent.
God never gives us more than what we can handle. Waverly and Harper are well-behaved children. Playing with them is easy. If I wanted some time alone or with Ngoc, I just speak up to them, they’ll listen.
The Lord knows our strengths and weaknesses. He gives me the hard battles with adults, because he sees my strength in backstage politics. My assignment with children are easier, because he knows that’s not my strong suit.
Who is Angela?
Claire, Angela is a close friend I met at McNally Smith College of Music in St. Paul, MN. I went there from 2013-2017 graduating before the school shut down. She went from 2014-2017 then to Berklee from 2022-2024 graduating from Berklee in 2024.