I need support and should not have fear of judgements or seek it out. I can’t take on some burdens all on my own. I was taught as a child to keep the skeletons in the closet. I know this is not healthy emotionally & physically but have tried to do so in the past.
Well, I don’t think I’ve learned anything
particularly new about myself. Maybe more
of a reinforcing of beliefs and practices.
I mean, I’m always learning more about
myself as I move through this life.
Or, I hope I am. Some things, I have to
learn over and over again, before it sticks.
I’m trying to learn to be okay with what is.
The thing I have learnt about myself is that I am not as introverted as I thought I was. While I am definitely not the person in the center of the room at any party, I do like talking with people, making friends and building relationships.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I have grown I still have a bout with my EGO most days. I love this quote from Pema Chodron and have found it very helpful.
“The ego wants resolution, wants to control impermanence, wants something secure and certain to hold on to. It freezes what is actually fluid, it grasps at what is in motion, it tries to escape the beautiful truth of the fully alive nature of everything. As a result, we feel dissatisfied, haunted, threatened. We spend much of our time in a cage created by our own fear of discomfort.”
Welcoming the Unwelcome
Wholehearted Living in a Brokenhearted World
by Pema Chödrön,
page 32–33
Even while walking through my grief and loss of loosing two family members to death by suicide and walking beside two brothers with cancer, there is a God given strength within me to keep moving forward; “heel toe, heel toe.” I am amazed when humorous comedic character acting (Mother Frances Cabrini and Bridget of the Isles) can step forward bringing cheer at events. There are less days of wanting to stay home under cozy blankets. Avoidance of living immersed in life is an easier softer way, that I must avoid.
My observation is when I follow my gut it is usually right. And that I have more inner strength than I realize. That one consistency in life is change. When I am consistent with a grateful attitude it soothes the change.
Dealing with the side effects of successful cancer treatments has taught me to trust my God-given insights & truth, especially my resilience and depth.
I have good days. I have bad days. I remember important truths:
‘and this too shall pass’
emotions come and go like clouds
focus on the present
I will always love giving
Always remain grateful
I have learned, that over the years, I have developed the skills and the spirit to work with what comes my way in life. And that is an ongoing Hallelujah!
As I peruse the other reflections, I am reminded of how similar we all are. I have learned I am good, holy, patient, impatient, anxious, and Divine. I, too, am learning and relearning at a slow pace. But, this year my practice deepened exponentially. I hope the traction gained will persist. Thank you to all of you for your light and love.
I have learned, and continue to learn, my physical vulnerabilities. And trying to make the best of a lot of isolation. I am so grateful for this site, and daily gift of connection.
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I need support and should not have fear of judgements or seek it out. I can’t take on some burdens all on my own. I was taught as a child to keep the skeletons in the closet. I know this is not healthy emotionally & physically but have tried to do so in the past.
That I am more resilient than I thought. I have dealt with major health issues better than I would have imagined
Your post gives me hope as I face concerns along with the major issues my husband is dealing with.
This life that pulses within me is much bigger, mysterious and incredible than I had assumed when I took the time to stop and look.
Well, I don’t think I’ve learned anything
particularly new about myself. Maybe more
of a reinforcing of beliefs and practices.
I mean, I’m always learning more about
myself as I move through this life.
Or, I hope I am. Some things, I have to
learn over and over again, before it sticks.
I’m trying to learn to be okay with what is.
Charlie, “Some things, I have to learn over and over again, before it sticks.” I relate!
Sometimes I think remedial may be my middle name!
The thing I have learnt about myself is that I am not as introverted as I thought I was. While I am definitely not the person in the center of the room at any party, I do like talking with people, making friends and building relationships.
Interesting. I learned that about myself during the pandemic. I missed being with people a lot more than I would have imagined.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I have grown I still have a bout with my EGO most days. I love this quote from Pema Chodron and have found it very helpful.
“The ego wants resolution, wants to control impermanence, wants something secure and certain to hold on to. It freezes what is actually fluid, it grasps at what is in motion, it tries to escape the beautiful truth of the fully alive nature of everything. As a result, we feel dissatisfied, haunted, threatened. We spend much of our time in a cage created by our own fear of discomfort.”
Welcoming the Unwelcome
Wholehearted Living in a Brokenhearted World
by Pema Chödrön,
page 32–33
Powerful! I thank you!!
Even while walking through my grief and loss of loosing two family members to death by suicide and walking beside two brothers with cancer, there is a God given strength within me to keep moving forward; “heel toe, heel toe.” I am amazed when humorous comedic character acting (Mother Frances Cabrini and Bridget of the Isles) can step forward bringing cheer at events. There are less days of wanting to stay home under cozy blankets. Avoidance of living immersed in life is an easier softer way, that I must avoid.
Thank you Carla
My observation is when I follow my gut it is usually right. And that I have more inner strength than I realize. That one consistency in life is change. When I am consistent with a grateful attitude it soothes the change.
Dealing with the side effects of successful cancer treatments has taught me to trust my God-given insights & truth, especially my resilience and depth.
I have good days. I have bad days. I remember important truths:
‘and this too shall pass’
emotions come and go like clouds
focus on the present
I will always love giving
Always remain grateful
I have learned, that over the years, I have developed the skills and the spirit to work with what comes my way in life. And that is an ongoing Hallelujah!
That I am really strong, but that I still have plenty of work to do.
As I peruse the other reflections, I am reminded of how similar we all are. I have learned I am good, holy, patient, impatient, anxious, and Divine. I, too, am learning and relearning at a slow pace. But, this year my practice deepened exponentially. I hope the traction gained will persist. Thank you to all of you for your light and love.
I continue to learn the slow pace of acceptance and change.
I have learned, and continue to learn, my physical vulnerabilities. And trying to make the best of a lot of isolation. I am so grateful for this site, and daily gift of connection.