For years
I didn’t much care what happened to me.
My actual trust in life
had been blown to smithereens . . .
after that
I just went with the flow,
and the ‘flow’
took me to some pretty terrible places.
But oh,
I learned so much,
and for that
I cannot be regretful.
There were nights
when I seriously wondered
if I would be alive the next day.
I suppose I am a damaged student,
for I am unable still,
to return fully
to that place of trust before life happened,
although I can make myself believe in it,
if only for a few moments at a time.
I realize
that I avoid thinking about it,
just as I stay away from unpleasant encounters
and thoughts about what could happen in the future . . .
of course I know better,
but there is this very cute little chipmunk
that lives in the hole in my heart
who needs to be held in the palm of a warm hand.
I know that hand is mine
but I cannot find it . . .
yet. ♥
This quote from Br. David blew me away.”Deep trust in life is not a feeling but a stance that you deliberately take. It is the attitude we call courage.” It took me such a long time to trust Life but when I did, I also started trusting myself. A new door was certainly opened for me.
When has trusting life opened a new door for me?
Whenever I start something new, it is my trust in life that allows me to move forward.
Whenever I am hesitating to do something that I really want to do, it is fear, not trusting life, that holds me back.
As I get older it occurs to me that I need to do the things I want to do, while I can.
No more hanging back, the time is now.
Saying yes to my life is saying no to fear, and no to distrusting life.
Wishing a gentle and peaceful Sunday evening to all.
I can relate to this very much,
dear Mary.
There are a few things
I would like to have done
before I couldn’t . . .
not many,
but a few.
Thank you for your reflection . . . ♥
I learned recently since my ex spouse passed away that I am eligible for a ss top off which will allow me to receive part of his ss benefit to boost mine. He was always in sales and made a lot more money then me. I feel like I am deserving of this especially all the years I was the custodial parent and also having to help my daughter financially the last 2+ yrs get back on her feet. Was definitely an unexpected thing to learn but a relief for sure.
I feel as if I almost always trust life. Or I trust myself to make my way through my life, come what may. If I read this as a question about taking a plunge with an unknown outcome, that’s true every time I step outside my door, isn’t it?
Taking it as a question about those big moments and decisions to do something new and different, my list includes marriage, motherhood, taking new jobs, moving to new towns, taking up new activities that brought me to new places and people I wouldn’t have otherwise met, and traveling overseas on my own to spend two weeks in France (at a conference and then a week of vacation) using my limited French to get around. Lots of doors to go through, and more to come.
I also recognize it’s much easier for me to trust life than it might be for someone else. I’ve had a relatively easy life, not that it’s a contest. Happy, safe and healthy childhood, always people in my life who love me and who would help if I needed it, skills and abilities that led to good jobs with benefits, and much more that enables me to move through my life with ease, for the most part. I’ve had my bumps and low times that I won’t list here, but overall I’ve been very, very fortunate.
Well, I wish I could day that I unconditionally trust life, but it’s not that easy, for me.
It’s gotten better and I have a much less pessimistic attitude (thank you gratitude 🙏).
But it does feel like when I am in the flow and not resisting, things open up for me.
I’m in a phase of trusting life. I’ve let my career trickle down due to a bare (contractor) minimum, with no idea of what to do next, except the knowledge that I have to do things differently. Meantime, I’ve been blessed with regular wisdom and joy in the form of friends, music, and my body. Lately a couple of opportunities to use my skills have come up. People doing daring, edgy, revelatory things in life want my help. These people came to me without me looking or trying–just emerged from the greater flow. I still don’t know what’s happening, but it seems there is a cosmic weave at work, and I’m encouraged to continue to trust.
“Cosmic weave” is such a great way to describe the flow ✨
While you are encouraged by this, your response is encouraging to me as I am in my own state of flux right now.
Your reply makes me think of Joseph Campbell’s “Follow your bliss.” I am sure it took a lot of trust in life and yourself to walk away from a successful career.
I think life cornered me in this case. I got really burned out, and then, just in case I felt like I could push myself back into my old role, the AI boom wiped out jobs in my industry. I ended up grieving my old identity for a good while. Increasingly I am growing convinced that trusting the invisible thread is the only way.
Aww thanks Antoinette, it’s nice to hear that! Thanks for the validation. It feels so uncertain, but it is moving in its own direction, and it is up to me to trust, even if my linear mind can make no sense of it.
I feel you . Yesterday I had a hard time with the days question. I reflected deeply within. I could see that I cannot trust life. My fade self keeps expecting, wanting and distrusting. All I could do was surrender. Thank you 🙏
Good morning from Holbrook, Az. No bull snake in front of the lobby door this time!
Taking this road trip of 2000 miles for my brother-in laws memorial service 8 days after a planned road trip of 1600 miles to spend our grandsons birthday with him, his and our family. Trust in life and trust in avoidance of the percentage of maniacs that have a vehicle and hit the highways. Last trip we came upon a horrific wreck. This time we have seen a couple single vehicle wrecks and many trails and tracks of others. So far so good and about 400 miles to home. It will good to be on ‘nuestro tierra’ and to reunite with Pooch and the barn cats.
Peace, Love & Light.
It was a nice shade of green from Flagstaff all the way to Sanat Fe. The monsoon moisture has made the southwest look much better. That part of the world is mostly not green. No maniacs today, thank goodness.
Currently I’m taking an unexpected short trip to attend my friend’s memorial service. She passed right after our high school reunion-it was her goal to attend it, as she walked through many health challenges. I’m trusting the trip will all fall into place, and the numerous tasks I currently have will be completed prior. (I’m also using the mantra, “how important is it?” as I review my To Do list. A different kind of surrender.
I just read advice in a different context (interactions with another person where you disagree). Dolly Chugh suggests rating things on a 1-10 scale. How important is this to me? If it’s a 10, we keep talking. Lower numbers, set it down and move on. Feels as if that could apply to chores too. I know I do this before a trip–I have one coming up that starts next Sunday and I’m “shoulding” on myself.
Oh boy, I have a lot I could say here, but I’ll try to keep it brief.
In early 2024, when my husband and I decided to sell our business and our home, which we did that summer. We were both unhappy with how things had been going and decided to just throw it all in the wind. It’s amazing how both things sold within days of each other.
Moving to WNC at the end of summer 2024, getting hit by Hurricane Helene, finding our way to Charlotte and deciding to stay. While the first month in the mountains was filled with amazing hikes and views I will never forget, ending up in Charlotte opened so many new doors for my Yoga teachings as well as my personal practice.
And then this past May, when we vacationed in Carolina Beach, and I found myself in the surf again. I was in my element, and I remember my husband asking, “do you miss the beach now?” The only answer was YES! Here we are, four months later, living on the coast again. Not working yet, but I’ve been putting a lot of time into my new website, recording a short pranayama practice to include on it, and trusting that all will be well and that all is well.
Learning to trust, to surrender, has been such a wonderful gift in my life. I am so grateful.
Wish you could, too! I was out for almost 4 hours yesterday. Gotta enjoy the swell while it’s still there! And the people are all so nice. So far, I am loving this surf community 💙
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Michele
3 weeks ago
When I quit my last job before obtaining a new one I was trusting all would work out, and it did thankfully 🙂
It was not too long ago right after my recording with Martin. Suddenly, I became interested in bloodlines. I’ve learned that they go beyond our earthly family. We have an interesting way of combining things. The “Mom” and “Dad” card is a tool we use to help the systems we built last longer.
Everyone gets caught up in the “Mom and Dad” game to a varying degree whether we realize it or not. It ultimately comes down to intent. For example, Martin is my “Loc Gets Straight to the Point” son. Sean is my “Zen” son. Being a parent means looking out for our people, not powerplays. In this context, I’m talking about “system” parent; not “Biological” parent.
Drea, It was not too long ago that I saw family as the people we get born into from mom and dad with our brothers and sisters along with aunts, uncles, great aunts, great uncles, and cousins on each side. That was what I was taught which goes for 10 out of every 10 families from collective cultures.
EJP, the golf course became more common. I’ve been hearing more stories of celebrities and business guys showing off their swings and their under-the-table deals.
Trying new things, including parkrun, which is now a cherished Saturday morning fixture for me; moving towns to take up new opportunities; travel, and trusting my gut in relationships.
Trusting life is an interesting concept. Maybe it ties in with the practice of finding temporary explanations for negative things, and permanent reasons for positive things.
Wow. ” finding temporary explanations for negative things, and permanent reasons for positive things” gives me a lot to think about. It relates to the way some of us provide excuses or explanations for actions of others while thinking our own failures are somehow intrinsic to who we are.
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For years
I didn’t much care what happened to me.
My actual trust in life
had been blown to smithereens . . .
after that
I just went with the flow,
and the ‘flow’
took me to some pretty terrible places.
But oh,
I learned so much,
and for that
I cannot be regretful.
There were nights
when I seriously wondered
if I would be alive the next day.
I suppose I am a damaged student,
for I am unable still,
to return fully
to that place of trust before life happened,
although I can make myself believe in it,
if only for a few moments at a time.
I realize
that I avoid thinking about it,
just as I stay away from unpleasant encounters
and thoughts about what could happen in the future . . .
of course I know better,
but there is this very cute little chipmunk
that lives in the hole in my heart
who needs to be held in the palm of a warm hand.
I know that hand is mine
but I cannot find it . . .
yet. ♥
🌞
This quote from Br. David blew me away.”Deep trust in life is not a feeling but a stance that you deliberately take. It is the attitude we call courage.” It took me such a long time to trust Life but when I did, I also started trusting myself. A new door was certainly opened for me.
I’m so grateful,
dear Carol Ann,
that you have found this peace. ♥
When has trusting life opened a new door for me?
Whenever I start something new, it is my trust in life that allows me to move forward.
Whenever I am hesitating to do something that I really want to do, it is fear, not trusting life, that holds me back.
As I get older it occurs to me that I need to do the things I want to do, while I can.
No more hanging back, the time is now.
Saying yes to my life is saying no to fear, and no to distrusting life.
Wishing a gentle and peaceful Sunday evening to all.
I would like to hear about the things you want to do, Mary. I get inspired hearing about others’ bucket lists.
Very true, Mary. We only have 1 life to live.
”No more hanging back, the time is now.”
I can relate to this very much,
dear Mary.
There are a few things
I would like to have done
before I couldn’t . . .
not many,
but a few.
Thank you for your reflection . . . ♥
I learned recently since my ex spouse passed away that I am eligible for a ss top off which will allow me to receive part of his ss benefit to boost mine. He was always in sales and made a lot more money then me. I feel like I am deserving of this especially all the years I was the custodial parent and also having to help my daughter financially the last 2+ yrs get back on her feet. Was definitely an unexpected thing to learn but a relief for sure.
I’m glad to hear about your windfall, Robin. Sounds like a divine gift.
That is great news, Robin. Well deserved. 🩵
I feel as if I almost always trust life. Or I trust myself to make my way through my life, come what may. If I read this as a question about taking a plunge with an unknown outcome, that’s true every time I step outside my door, isn’t it?
Taking it as a question about those big moments and decisions to do something new and different, my list includes marriage, motherhood, taking new jobs, moving to new towns, taking up new activities that brought me to new places and people I wouldn’t have otherwise met, and traveling overseas on my own to spend two weeks in France (at a conference and then a week of vacation) using my limited French to get around. Lots of doors to go through, and more to come.
I also recognize it’s much easier for me to trust life than it might be for someone else. I’ve had a relatively easy life, not that it’s a contest. Happy, safe and healthy childhood, always people in my life who love me and who would help if I needed it, skills and abilities that led to good jobs with benefits, and much more that enables me to move through my life with ease, for the most part. I’ve had my bumps and low times that I won’t list here, but overall I’ve been very, very fortunate.
Yes, I am very fortunate too, Barb.
No apologies,
dear Barb . . .
feel Blessed. ♥
Well, I wish I could day that I unconditionally trust life, but it’s not that easy, for me.
It’s gotten better and I have a much less pessimistic attitude (thank you gratitude 🙏).
But it does feel like when I am in the flow and not resisting, things open up for me.
Charlie, it’s the strings we pull that holds us back.
I’m in a phase of trusting life. I’ve let my career trickle down due to a bare (contractor) minimum, with no idea of what to do next, except the knowledge that I have to do things differently. Meantime, I’ve been blessed with regular wisdom and joy in the form of friends, music, and my body. Lately a couple of opportunities to use my skills have come up. People doing daring, edgy, revelatory things in life want my help. These people came to me without me looking or trying–just emerged from the greater flow. I still don’t know what’s happening, but it seems there is a cosmic weave at work, and I’m encouraged to continue to trust.
“Cosmic weave” is such a great way to describe the flow ✨
While you are encouraged by this, your response is encouraging to me as I am in my own state of flux right now.
Wishing you fulfilling new connections and surprising forms of inspiration, Sunnypatti.
Your reply makes me think of Joseph Campbell’s “Follow your bliss.” I am sure it took a lot of trust in life and yourself to walk away from a successful career.
I think life cornered me in this case. I got really burned out, and then, just in case I felt like I could push myself back into my old role, the AI boom wiped out jobs in my industry. I ended up grieving my old identity for a good while. Increasingly I am growing convinced that trusting the invisible thread is the only way.
I like that expression “…trusting the invisible thread…” I truly think it is the way, the truth and the Life. It’s Soul.
DREA, that’s challenging and I know how it feels to feel unsure about what happens next . You have a great attitude !
Aww thanks Antoinette, it’s nice to hear that! Thanks for the validation. It feels so uncertain, but it is moving in its own direction, and it is up to me to trust, even if my linear mind can make no sense of it.
I feel you . Yesterday I had a hard time with the days question. I reflected deeply within. I could see that I cannot trust life. My fade self keeps expecting, wanting and distrusting. All I could do was surrender. Thank you 🙏
Good morning from Holbrook, Az. No bull snake in front of the lobby door this time!
Taking this road trip of 2000 miles for my brother-in laws memorial service 8 days after a planned road trip of 1600 miles to spend our grandsons birthday with him, his and our family. Trust in life and trust in avoidance of the percentage of maniacs that have a vehicle and hit the highways. Last trip we came upon a horrific wreck. This time we have seen a couple single vehicle wrecks and many trails and tracks of others. So far so good and about 400 miles to home. It will good to be on ‘nuestro tierra’ and to reunite with Pooch and the barn cats.
Peace, Love & Light.
Joseph, I hear you!
You are trusting the process,
dear Joseph . . . ♥
Have a safe trip and enjoy the scenery. Wishing no more maniacs on your trip.
It was a nice shade of green from Flagstaff all the way to Sanat Fe. The monsoon moisture has made the southwest look much better. That part of the world is mostly not green. No maniacs today, thank goodness.
Sending safe energy for the remainder of your trip home!
Currently I’m taking an unexpected short trip to attend my friend’s memorial service. She passed right after our high school reunion-it was her goal to attend it, as she walked through many health challenges. I’m trusting the trip will all fall into place, and the numerous tasks I currently have will be completed prior. (I’m also using the mantra, “how important is it?” as I review my To Do list. A different kind of surrender.
My condolences to you on the loss of your friend. Safe travels on your trip to her memorial service.
May your journey be calm and safe Carla.
God speed.
Sorry Carla for a loss of a friend. Safe trip!
I just read advice in a different context (interactions with another person where you disagree). Dolly Chugh suggests rating things on a 1-10 scale. How important is this to me? If it’s a 10, we keep talking. Lower numbers, set it down and move on. Feels as if that could apply to chores too. I know I do this before a trip–I have one coming up that starts next Sunday and I’m “shoulding” on myself.
Thank you for this,
dear Carla . . .
“How important is this?”
I am attaching this mantra
to my own to-do list. ♥
ps. Travel safely.
Sorry for your loss Carla. I appreciate your mantra – how important is this ?
I can use this as well! Hugs 🤗
I’m so sorry for your loss, Carla. I’m glad your friend could fulfill her wish of attending the reunion.
I’m sorry about your friend, Carla. Be safe on your trip to honor her life.
Oh boy, I have a lot I could say here, but I’ll try to keep it brief.
In early 2024, when my husband and I decided to sell our business and our home, which we did that summer. We were both unhappy with how things had been going and decided to just throw it all in the wind. It’s amazing how both things sold within days of each other.
Moving to WNC at the end of summer 2024, getting hit by Hurricane Helene, finding our way to Charlotte and deciding to stay. While the first month in the mountains was filled with amazing hikes and views I will never forget, ending up in Charlotte opened so many new doors for my Yoga teachings as well as my personal practice.
And then this past May, when we vacationed in Carolina Beach, and I found myself in the surf again. I was in my element, and I remember my husband asking, “do you miss the beach now?” The only answer was YES! Here we are, four months later, living on the coast again. Not working yet, but I’ve been putting a lot of time into my new website, recording a short pranayama practice to include on it, and trusting that all will be well and that all is well.
Learning to trust, to surrender, has been such a wonderful gift in my life. I am so grateful.
I love knowing your great journey and boy you definitely had to trust life! Many blessing ahead as well 💕🙏
Thanks for the blessings, Robin Ann!
Your trust
and letting go,
dear SunnyPatti,
are amazing . . .
the Universe smiles on you. ♥
And I smile back…
in gratitude 🙂
I love how things have worked out for you, Sunnypatti. Enjoy the ocean!
I surfed for 3 hours yesterday. Just glorious 🌊
Yessss!! Love hearing this. Wish I could join you.
Wish you could, too! I was out for almost 4 hours yesterday. Gotta enjoy the swell while it’s still there! And the people are all so nice. So far, I am loving this surf community 💙
When I quit my last job before obtaining a new one I was trusting all would work out, and it did thankfully 🙂
Have a peaceful relaxing Sunday everyone.
You have a peaceful relaxing Sunday too, Michele.
Thank you Michele.
It was not too long ago right after my recording with Martin. Suddenly, I became interested in bloodlines. I’ve learned that they go beyond our earthly family. We have an interesting way of combining things. The “Mom” and “Dad” card is a tool we use to help the systems we built last longer.
Everyone gets caught up in the “Mom and Dad” game to a varying degree whether we realize it or not. It ultimately comes down to intent. For example, Martin is my “Loc Gets Straight to the Point” son. Sean is my “Zen” son. Being a parent means looking out for our people, not powerplays. In this context, I’m talking about “system” parent; not “Biological” parent.
Loc, I think we replay family in so many roles in life–job, friendships, even religion. It’s how we’re wired.
Drea, It was not too long ago that I saw family as the people we get born into from mom and dad with our brothers and sisters along with aunts, uncles, great aunts, great uncles, and cousins on each side. That was what I was taught which goes for 10 out of every 10 families from collective cultures.
Trusting life during the pandemic when so many doors closed, yet so many new ones opened into endless possibilities and opportunities.
EJP, the golf course became more common. I’ve been hearing more stories of celebrities and business guys showing off their swings and their under-the-table deals.
Trying new things, including parkrun, which is now a cherished Saturday morning fixture for me; moving towns to take up new opportunities; travel, and trusting my gut in relationships.
Trusting life is an interesting concept. Maybe it ties in with the practice of finding temporary explanations for negative things, and permanent reasons for positive things.
Wow. ” finding temporary explanations for negative things, and permanent reasons for positive things” gives me a lot to think about. It relates to the way some of us provide excuses or explanations for actions of others while thinking our own failures are somehow intrinsic to who we are.
”Maybe it ties in with the practice of finding temporary explanations for negative things, and permanent reasons for positive things.”
Hmmmmmmmm . . .
something to think about,
dear Misty. ♥
I hadn’t heard of parkrun and looked it up–how fun! I want to find one near me now.
Maybe so, Misty. I enjoy your picture, too.