I didn’t answer yesterday because I couldn’t think of anything, but after teaching my gentle yoga yesterday morning, I had a meaningful surprise. A woman who has only recently started taking my classes came up to me after and thanked me for speaking on gratitude. I did both yesterday and this past Tuesday’s class. She told me that she cried a little on Tuesday when I was talking about it, and I apologized for not noticing (it was a full class), to which she said it was okay. I never expect anything from my students and am just grateful that they enjoy taking class with me. Her coming up to me was such a nice exchange of loving energy. And the fact that something I said touched her deeply made me feel like I am doing the work I am supposed to be doing.
There hasn’t been a whole lot of surprises lately.
Not sure if that’s a good or a bad thing.
I guess I should be surprised that I’m still here. Still making it happen. Still putting one foot in front of the other.
To my complete surprise, humbly and being deeply grateful, there are open doors concerning arranging the needed changes to realize working in various ways related to core values, possibly both in meditation and substantial work together with dear friends. It means to let go of a lot of things, change of the focus in my profession, moving to another place while deeply grateful looking forward to working together in one spirit with kindred dear friends and finally being able to contribute my bit of share for creating possible old and new perspectives with all my heart. Thank you dearly, life, and a deep Thank You to the one dear to my heart and way who opened the door and to all the ones concerned who make this possible. May blessings be to you all.
Perhaps more likely hope and prayers answered (not surprise) that both my Adult children are in very good places in their lives right now and my 15 yr old grandson got his first job as a life guard at a water park ✨💕
I think perhaps I became a little arrogant
allowing myself to believe
that I understood
that ‘others’ behavior
was not about me.
But it seems I’ve taken it back upon myself,
or maybe I just got tired of either ignoring it or deflecting it,
until one sentence
ripped me to the core,
and if I could have
I would have fallen to my knees.
My ego awoke abruptly
and started up in her bed . . .
well rested was she
and ready for tears,
accusations and recriminations.
Fortunately,
I guess,
I was able to hold her at bay . . .
I bit my lip and turned away
But that sentence
has planted a poison seed
in the most wounded part of me.
It lies
twisting under the surface,
trying to grow,
and though I keep tamping it down,
it lays there like an unwanted step child,
both angry and forlorn.
I ignore the barbs,
but although I thought I had healed from intention
they wound me again now,
as if I hadn’t grown up at all
and was still a child at my mother’s knee.
This is what Practice
is all about . . .
it doesn’t mean you’ll overcome your wounds,
but only that you’ll recognize them
and know the source of their true meaning.
This has been my surprise this week,
and although I’ve been bitterly reminded of the anguish that was triggered,
I swim my way to the surface,
take a breath
and remember
that it’s not me . . .
it’s not who I am anymore.
It’s not who I ever was,
but didn’t know it . . .
had gotten a little lazy
and forgotten. ♥
My husband needed an urgent medical procedure this week. He is healing well and has a followup appointment scheduled. I am hopeful that this procedure is the remedy he has been needing for several years, but wasn’t indicated in tests until last week. I am still adjusting to the concept that there was a remedy, that there was a procedure that could help. It was just out of reach until the tests showed the problem clearly. Certainly surprising, definitely meaningful, and most grateful!
I am grateful with you,
dear Enndee,
that your husband has received a new treatment
that he needed,
and pray that the anxiety
you have both experienced
will settle into a sense of peace. ♥
The abundant support, words of encouragement, emojis, and kindness here on these pages has been a “Balm in Gillad.” (Youtube VocalEssence, sorry I can’t do a link.) during this stretch of grief and loss. An unexpected hug on Monday surprised me too. Peace to all this weekend. ☮️
I am always surprised, even at this age, how much lack of rest takes its toll on me physically, emotionally and spiritually. And conversely, I continue to be surprised how much everything changes in all those ways, when I get the rest I need. Attention caregivers everywhere: please get the rest and personal care you need if and when at all possible. It’s a lifesaver! I am praying for you wherever you are.
Being closer to god makes it easier to accept that I’ll always be a baby in the eyes of my elders. He has the biggest picture, then our elders, and followed by us. The utterfly affect is real.
My sleep quality, especially over the last 2 weeks, has improved. It’s led to my last 4 blood sugar readings being better. My last 4 readings in order are: 144, 134, 146, and 129 just this morning. My dad and I measure our blood sugar every other day. These numbers stem from a combination of sleep, exercise, and eating well.
Of course, the root of it all is purity. I no longer come in with any ulterior motives. The more we try to outsmart god, the more troubles we run into. That’s exactly the case back then when I tried outsmarting Paw Mu. Little did I know, it backfired 6 years later being 2025. God put her into my life at the time for a reason. I was wild and needed direction. He felt that she was the best who could provide me with healing and discipline.
I recently mustered up the courage to take a voice lesson, and absolutely loved it. The last time I sang was in middle school choir. It is treat to rediscover singing.
I’ve thought of doing that. I was a voice major in college, but life happened and I’m now a senior citizen who has not sung except in the car for many years. Good for you!
Instead of ruminating on my shame and guilt, I have been trying To forgive myself. I feel a lightness in my body when I do, and the world doesn’t feel as scary as before. And for that, I am grateful. 🙏🏽🧡
Trying to always look for the positives in all situations.
TGIF.
Plumbers still working at my house, add-ons expenses, a brand new water heater I bought is defective – having to deal with that, life tries teaching me patience but I’m not a patient person…. deep breaths and one day at a time.
Thank you for the link and your plumbing update. My father had a mimeographed copy of two buzzards sitting on a limb of a tree, taped to a box in the garage. One buzzard looked at the other buzzard and stated “Patience Hell, I’m gonna kill something.”
The return to living of dormant plants, shrubs and trees here at elevation. It was a dry winter and so far, a dry spring. The meager snowpack has been seeking its level. Life is striving to do what the inner intelligence of life does. Live.
“Live wholeheartedly, and be surprised, give thanks and praise – then you will discover the fullness of your life.” Br. David
Thank you universe for the intelligence and tenacity of all life.
It is truly a miracle to behold,
dear Joseph,
every year,
to see the awakening of the earth,
especially for you
where it is so dry.
May our hearts be lifted . . .
Peace, Love and Light to you as well. ♥
Well, it hasn’t been in a good way. I bought a car and my sister and I reckoned the expenses. I’m not gonna have much money for awhile. I reflected on my male friend and how, faced with the same challenge, he would just accept it. That calms me.
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I didn’t answer yesterday because I couldn’t think of anything, but after teaching my gentle yoga yesterday morning, I had a meaningful surprise. A woman who has only recently started taking my classes came up to me after and thanked me for speaking on gratitude. I did both yesterday and this past Tuesday’s class. She told me that she cried a little on Tuesday when I was talking about it, and I apologized for not noticing (it was a full class), to which she said it was okay. I never expect anything from my students and am just grateful that they enjoy taking class with me. Her coming up to me was such a nice exchange of loving energy. And the fact that something I said touched her deeply made me feel like I am doing the work I am supposed to be doing.
Aww, what a gift. I’m really happy you shared this.
💖
💗
Yes you are and how I wish I could take your gentle yoga class:)🧘♀️
I wish you could, too 🙂
There hasn’t been a whole lot of surprises lately.
Not sure if that’s a good or a bad thing.
I guess I should be surprised that I’m still here. Still making it happen. Still putting one foot in front of the other.
Charlie, no news is good news.
Neither good or bad Charlie. It just is.
To my complete surprise, humbly and being deeply grateful, there are open doors concerning arranging the needed changes to realize working in various ways related to core values, possibly both in meditation and substantial work together with dear friends. It means to let go of a lot of things, change of the focus in my profession, moving to another place while deeply grateful looking forward to working together in one spirit with kindred dear friends and finally being able to contribute my bit of share for creating possible old and new perspectives with all my heart. Thank you dearly, life, and a deep Thank You to the one dear to my heart and way who opened the door and to all the ones concerned who make this possible. May blessings be to you all.
It sounds,
dear Ose,
like the work you do
is very meaningful . . .
I’m grateful
that you have that kind of job. ♥
Perhaps more likely hope and prayers answered (not surprise) that both my Adult children are in very good places in their lives right now and my 15 yr old grandson got his first job as a life guard at a water park ✨💕
Happy Week-end all! 🌞
Sounds to be a 15 year old’s dream first job, Robin Ann;
I think perhaps I became a little arrogant
allowing myself to believe
that I understood
that ‘others’ behavior
was not about me.
But it seems I’ve taken it back upon myself,
or maybe I just got tired of either ignoring it or deflecting it,
until one sentence
ripped me to the core,
and if I could have
I would have fallen to my knees.
My ego awoke abruptly
and started up in her bed . . .
well rested was she
and ready for tears,
accusations and recriminations.
Fortunately,
I guess,
I was able to hold her at bay . . .
I bit my lip and turned away
But that sentence
has planted a poison seed
in the most wounded part of me.
It lies
twisting under the surface,
trying to grow,
and though I keep tamping it down,
it lays there like an unwanted step child,
both angry and forlorn.
I ignore the barbs,
but although I thought I had healed from intention
they wound me again now,
as if I hadn’t grown up at all
and was still a child at my mother’s knee.
This is what Practice
is all about . . .
it doesn’t mean you’ll overcome your wounds,
but only that you’ll recognize them
and know the source of their true meaning.
This has been my surprise this week,
and although I’ve been bitterly reminded of the anguish that was triggered,
I swim my way to the surface,
take a breath
and remember
that it’s not me . . .
it’s not who I am anymore.
It’s not who I ever was,
but didn’t know it . . .
had gotten a little lazy
and forgotten. ♥
Dear Sparrow, I hope things are evolving and integrating, and that you’ve had some time for joy.
Loving kindness to you Sparrow 💗
Thank you,
dear Michele . . .
it’s a lifelong journey
from which we never retire. ♥
Reads as some serious growth. Good growth that has evolved from pain deep within.
Serious and painful,
dear Joseph,
and something I thought I was done with.
I know now
I’ll never be ‘done’.
Gracias
for caring. ♥
My husband needed an urgent medical procedure this week. He is healing well and has a followup appointment scheduled. I am hopeful that this procedure is the remedy he has been needing for several years, but wasn’t indicated in tests until last week. I am still adjusting to the concept that there was a remedy, that there was a procedure that could help. It was just out of reach until the tests showed the problem clearly. Certainly surprising, definitely meaningful, and most grateful!
I ditto everyone else below – may your husband continue with his healing and have a speedy recovery.
Thanks so much, Michele.
May the good healing continue and end your spouse’s suffering, Enndee.
Thank you very much, Joseph.
Wishing all good fortune for your husband´s treatment, dear Endee. May the new remedy and procedure lead to regain healing. Blessings to both of you.
Thank you so much, Ose! Very much appreciated.
I am grateful with you,
dear Enndee,
that your husband has received a new treatment
that he needed,
and pray that the anxiety
you have both experienced
will settle into a sense of peace. ♥
Thank you, Sparrow…. I think a sense of peace is very welcome.
Good luck to your husband, Enndee, glad they found something with real promise.
Thank you, Drea! Cliché, but I think we will know when we know.
The abundant support, words of encouragement, emojis, and kindness here on these pages has been a “Balm in Gillad.” (Youtube VocalEssence, sorry I can’t do a link.) during this stretch of grief and loss. An unexpected hug on Monday surprised me too. Peace to all this weekend. ☮️
I believe in my heart,
dear Carla,
that we are all here
for each other
with love . . . ( ♥ )
The universe has supplied me with a much needed quote, a helpful, book, a compassionate person, and an needed object.
I am always surprised, even at this age, how much lack of rest takes its toll on me physically, emotionally and spiritually. And conversely, I continue to be surprised how much everything changes in all those ways, when I get the rest I need. Attention caregivers everywhere: please get the rest and personal care you need if and when at all possible. It’s a lifesaver! I am praying for you wherever you are.
Being closer to god makes it easier to accept that I’ll always be a baby in the eyes of my elders. He has the biggest picture, then our elders, and followed by us. The utterfly affect is real.
My sleep quality, especially over the last 2 weeks, has improved. It’s led to my last 4 blood sugar readings being better. My last 4 readings in order are: 144, 134, 146, and 129 just this morning. My dad and I measure our blood sugar every other day. These numbers stem from a combination of sleep, exercise, and eating well.
Of course, the root of it all is purity. I no longer come in with any ulterior motives. The more we try to outsmart god, the more troubles we run into. That’s exactly the case back then when I tried outsmarting Paw Mu. Little did I know, it backfired 6 years later being 2025. God put her into my life at the time for a reason. I was wild and needed direction. He felt that she was the best who could provide me with healing and discipline.
I recently mustered up the courage to take a voice lesson, and absolutely loved it. The last time I sang was in middle school choir. It is treat to rediscover singing.
I prefer the signing of the coyotes making fiesta to my own song Drea . . . perhaps voice lessons?
Ha, maybe learn to sing like a coyote and become one of the pack.
🙂
Sing,
dear Drea,
like no one is listening . . . 🙂
Thank you Sparrow, I’m working on it!
I’ve thought of doing that. I was a voice major in college, but life happened and I’m now a senior citizen who has not sung except in the car for many years. Good for you!
Thanks Kathy, I hope you can do it too! Majoring in voice in college must have been great fun.
Instead of ruminating on my shame and guilt, I have been trying To forgive myself. I feel a lightness in my body when I do, and the world doesn’t feel as scary as before. And for that, I am grateful. 🙏🏽🧡
I have learned,
dear Jenifer,
and am still learning,
that Practice is essential . . .
we are never done.
Blessings to you . . . ♥
I’m proud of you, Jennifer. Mistakes are a part of life. They’re not the end of the world. Once we learn from them, all is well.
Trying to always look for the positives in all situations.
TGIF.
Plumbers still working at my house, add-ons expenses, a brand new water heater I bought is defective – having to deal with that, life tries teaching me patience but I’m not a patient person…. deep breaths and one day at a time.
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Thank you for the link and your plumbing update. My father had a mimeographed copy of two buzzards sitting on a limb of a tree, taped to a box in the garage. One buzzard looked at the other buzzard and stated “Patience Hell, I’m gonna kill something.”
🤣
One more day of inconvenience with the plumbers,
dear Michele,
means one day closer to solution.
You can survive this. ♥
Yay for all winged creatures!
Bats are people too!
Thank you Sparrow 🤗
The return to living of dormant plants, shrubs and trees here at elevation. It was a dry winter and so far, a dry spring. The meager snowpack has been seeking its level. Life is striving to do what the inner intelligence of life does. Live.
“Live wholeheartedly, and be surprised, give thanks and praise – then you will discover the fullness of your life.” Br. David
Thank you universe for the intelligence and tenacity of all life.
Namaste. Peace. Love & Light.
It is truly a miracle to behold,
dear Joseph,
every year,
to see the awakening of the earth,
especially for you
where it is so dry.
May our hearts be lifted . . .
Peace, Love and Light to you as well. ♥
Well, it hasn’t been in a good way. I bought a car and my sister and I reckoned the expenses. I’m not gonna have much money for awhile. I reflected on my male friend and how, faced with the same challenge, he would just accept it. That calms me.
Keep on
keeping on,
dear Christina . . .
all is well. ♥
Yes, Sparrow all is well.